This might sound strange. But have you ever been so unlucky in life that when something good is finally happening you get terrified? I mean, how long is this good thing going to last for? Why do i feel so guilty about this good thing? what if i mess it it then what? So many questions.
jamgirltracia
Losing a friend or fiend, depends on how you look at it.
life is goodThere comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.
My best friend of 8 years crushed me a few months ago.We were inseparable. She was my advisor and the person who kept me grounded.For years i told the world how wonderful she was to me. Her two boys are my God sons. they call me Auntie Tracia. So you can imagine how i felt when i found out just how good of a friend she was to me.
She has had a hard life. The father of her oldest son left her when she became pregnant and the dad of the second has a woman in every part of Jamaica. I tried encouraging her to be independent and live for her sons instead of men but she couldn't understand. She has a obsessive personality when it comes to relationships. Raiding phones for numbers, calling other women and so on.I completely understand how she feels. it is not easy to not have someone to go through life with when you have two kids to think about, its even worst when for the second time the dad of the child loses interest. being a friend to both him and her i was placed in the middle constantly. She has it in her head that they are a couple and he constantly tells her that he doesn't want her.
To make along story short. When she and i met i was in a very bad relationship so i guess she felt good about that. after all, we were in the same boat. I don't have any kids yet but i was strongly in love with someone that used me every chance he gets. Their are some "friends" that like being friends with you because you are no better of than they are.
I finally came to my sense and left that relationship and was single for two long years. i needed time to heal. Two years ago i met Derrick. He is the most wonderful man i've ever met. We fell in love, hard and have been going strong ever since. we are buying a home together now, opening a business and getting married and starting a family soon. I guess by now you realise that my very dear and best friend of 8 years is finding all sorts of problems with us. "i don't spend enough time with her, i'm always busy" mind you i see her almost everyday. It got to a point where she started spreading rumors on me. I still tried with her as much as i could. Derrick keeps telling me she is not a good person because she has tried to sway his mind from me but i refused to believe my friend was in all rights, a fiend.
About two months ago she sent me a text saying that she don't ever want to speak to me again becasue i was never a good friend to her and i don't see her anymore. this is someone i gave my last to at all times. When she had no where to go i moved her into my home for almost a year expenses free. I couldn't believe what i was reading. I texted her back. NO PROBLEM. Months passed and i didn't call, text , see or even think about calling her. i was so hurt. when she realized i wasn't showing any interest she told a mutual friend of ours that as soon as Derrick leaves me, which he will, i will come running back to her. I called her and let her have it then. Now she keeps calling and texting me trying to patch things up. I'm i wrong for wanting nothing to do with her? How can people you've known for so long turn around to be your worst enemy? One things for sure, i'm never trusting or investing my time in any more friendships the way i did with her. It's not worth it.
My best friend of 8 years crushed me a few months ago.We were inseparable. She was my advisor and the person who kept me grounded.For years i told the world how wonderful she was to me. Her two boys are my God sons. they call me Auntie Tracia. So you can imagine how i felt when i found out just how good of a friend she was to me.
She has had a hard life. The father of her oldest son left her when she became pregnant and the dad of the second has a woman in every part of Jamaica. I tried encouraging her to be independent and live for her sons instead of men but she couldn't understand. She has a obsessive personality when it comes to relationships. Raiding phones for numbers, calling other women and so on.I completely understand how she feels. it is not easy to not have someone to go through life with when you have two kids to think about, its even worst when for the second time the dad of the child loses interest. being a friend to both him and her i was placed in the middle constantly. She has it in her head that they are a couple and he constantly tells her that he doesn't want her.
To make along story short. When she and i met i was in a very bad relationship so i guess she felt good about that. after all, we were in the same boat. I don't have any kids yet but i was strongly in love with someone that used me every chance he gets. Their are some "friends" that like being friends with you because you are no better of than they are.
I finally came to my sense and left that relationship and was single for two long years. i needed time to heal. Two years ago i met Derrick. He is the most wonderful man i've ever met. We fell in love, hard and have been going strong ever since. we are buying a home together now, opening a business and getting married and starting a family soon. I guess by now you realise that my very dear and best friend of 8 years is finding all sorts of problems with us. "i don't spend enough time with her, i'm always busy" mind you i see her almost everyday. It got to a point where she started spreading rumors on me. I still tried with her as much as i could. Derrick keeps telling me she is not a good person because she has tried to sway his mind from me but i refused to believe my friend was in all rights, a fiend.
About two months ago she sent me a text saying that she don't ever want to speak to me again becasue i was never a good friend to her and i don't see her anymore. this is someone i gave my last to at all times. When she had no where to go i moved her into my home for almost a year expenses free. I couldn't believe what i was reading. I texted her back. NO PROBLEM. Months passed and i didn't call, text , see or even think about calling her. i was so hurt. when she realized i wasn't showing any interest she told a mutual friend of ours that as soon as Derrick leaves me, which he will, i will come running back to her. I called her and let her have it then. Now she keeps calling and texting me trying to patch things up. I'm i wrong for wanting nothing to do with her? How can people you've known for so long turn around to be your worst enemy? One things for sure, i'm never trusting or investing my time in any more friendships the way i did with her. It's not worth it.
Introduction
I guess I need to start from scratch. I was born in St. Elizabeth, Jamaica on September 3rd, 1983 at 10:00AM. My mom had a home delivery. She lived in the country where a hospital was miles away and there wasn't much means of transportation back in those days. so i was born in her bedroom at home which my grandmother delivered me. after 3 weeks my mom left me with my grandmother. i only saw her probably one a year if that much. My grandmother took care of me and my sister until i was 10 and my sister was 14 at the time. I don't know if it was guilt or my grandmother told her she couldn't take care of us anymore but my mother finally took us to live with her in Kingston, which is where I've been living since. as you can imagine i don't have much of a relationship with my mother. she migrated to Florida about 6 years ago and to no ones surprise haven't kept in contact with her family here. I always say some people don't deserve to have kids.
I graduated high school in 2000. I began adulthood at an early age. i began working a 16 to support my mom while she was still here. nothing was wrong with her, she just felt she was too old to get a job, bullshit, and i needed to go work to maintain the household. I've been working ever since. i moved on my own at age 18. to think of it i never really had a childhood to do what people my age do. alot of people fail to believe i'm just 25 years old. I've always had that problem. according to everyone i'm too mature to be that young. to be honest i wouldn't change who i am for anything. i love being the mature one. I've accomplished so many things people much older haven't done yet, so for that i'm proud.
I have 1 brother and 1 sister by my mom. I met my dad at age 18 and found out that i have 8 more brothers and sister by him. Two of them are my age with only a few months difference. yeah, he was a bad boy, still is.
to make a long story short. I've been through alot. i've had my heart broken many times, people i love have betrayed me, both family and friends. I've been at the lowest stage in life a human can drop to. I've learnt that not everyone you can trust, something which i struggle with because i can't help but give people the benefit of the doubt. the relationship i was in for almost four years tore me apart. the man i slept beside for so many nights destroyed my mentally, emotionally and financially. Your worst enemies can be the closest person to you. All because at age 20 i began my own business and was doing well he couldn't handle that.
Currently, i'm the happiest i could ever be. I'm in a wonderful relationship for the past two years. I never knew people like him still exist. I never knew i could be so in love. We are currently starting up a business together, we are planning to get married and have a child soon. When you least expect it God steps in and bring you a little piece of heaven to your life. I just keep praying.
I graduated high school in 2000. I began adulthood at an early age. i began working a 16 to support my mom while she was still here. nothing was wrong with her, she just felt she was too old to get a job, bullshit, and i needed to go work to maintain the household. I've been working ever since. i moved on my own at age 18. to think of it i never really had a childhood to do what people my age do. alot of people fail to believe i'm just 25 years old. I've always had that problem. according to everyone i'm too mature to be that young. to be honest i wouldn't change who i am for anything. i love being the mature one. I've accomplished so many things people much older haven't done yet, so for that i'm proud.
I have 1 brother and 1 sister by my mom. I met my dad at age 18 and found out that i have 8 more brothers and sister by him. Two of them are my age with only a few months difference. yeah, he was a bad boy, still is.
to make a long story short. I've been through alot. i've had my heart broken many times, people i love have betrayed me, both family and friends. I've been at the lowest stage in life a human can drop to. I've learnt that not everyone you can trust, something which i struggle with because i can't help but give people the benefit of the doubt. the relationship i was in for almost four years tore me apart. the man i slept beside for so many nights destroyed my mentally, emotionally and financially. Your worst enemies can be the closest person to you. All because at age 20 i began my own business and was doing well he couldn't handle that.
Currently, i'm the happiest i could ever be. I'm in a wonderful relationship for the past two years. I never knew people like him still exist. I never knew i could be so in love. We are currently starting up a business together, we are planning to get married and have a child soon. When you least expect it God steps in and bring you a little piece of heaven to your life. I just keep praying.
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